Almost at the end of office hour I was called by one of my colleague asking me about a job task handled by me. So I explained but then we realized I made a mistake.
I admit it was my fault but it was something technical. I mean the last time I checked the data it was still valid. But today my colleague found it otherwise. To my defence, the data maybe updated within the time I checked, which is two months. Anything can be happened within the two months period.
So the blame was put on me. My method was wrong. The one who taught me denied it though, as she blamed my colleague for being too complicated. I didn't know what to say. I barely understand the job's objective or maybe my understanding was not at the same level as others.
In the middle of the situation I felt very stupid. They had a light mouth fight and every jargons that came out from their mouth, I didn't understand. Rasa sedih sangat. I knew what I did but failed to relate it in a big picture.
At the end, the problem was still unsolved. I admit the one who taught me is too hard to admit her own mistake (turned out to be my mistake also). People hate her very much that they hate me too, which then I was called by name of "Anak Raja".
It's hard to live in here, to survive. But this is the life I chose. Someone should pay the price though.
Mulut terasa macam ada pasir. Terasa perit sangat nak telan.
I admit it was my fault but it was something technical. I mean the last time I checked the data it was still valid. But today my colleague found it otherwise. To my defence, the data maybe updated within the time I checked, which is two months. Anything can be happened within the two months period.
So the blame was put on me. My method was wrong. The one who taught me denied it though, as she blamed my colleague for being too complicated. I didn't know what to say. I barely understand the job's objective or maybe my understanding was not at the same level as others.
In the middle of the situation I felt very stupid. They had a light mouth fight and every jargons that came out from their mouth, I didn't understand. Rasa sedih sangat. I knew what I did but failed to relate it in a big picture.
At the end, the problem was still unsolved. I admit the one who taught me is too hard to admit her own mistake (turned out to be my mistake also). People hate her very much that they hate me too, which then I was called by name of "Anak Raja".
It's hard to live in here, to survive. But this is the life I chose. Someone should pay the price though.
Mulut terasa macam ada pasir. Terasa perit sangat nak telan.
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